Fear...you nasty bugger!
So this trying to start a business thing… it’s real scary. Scary in so many different ways I could have never imagined when I decided to give this a shot.
Let me give a bit of background first. I have taken photography classes, photography workshops, business of photography classes, watched a million online videos on the subject. Heck I’ve even went through "safety of newborn posing" training! Through all of it you are taught how to get the best photo, where to put your focus, what depth of field, aperture, shutter speeds, ISO’s, lighting techniques, studio set up, accounting, marketing, and so on and so forth. All these classes prepare you for the “business” but not the feelings associated with all of it. I am beginning to think that all business owners feel the same when they are just starting out…
Fear of failure
Fear of not being good enough
Fear of putting yourself out there
Fear of letting others down
Fear of not building your dream
Fear that you will never get to where you want to be
Sooo many fears! So many mean little bugger emotions in your head that do everything they can to hold you back and make you want to quit. Now have I quit, nope! Have these emotions held me back, heck yah!
I keep telling myself to go up to that pregnant woman on the street and give her my business card, but I have yet to be brave enough to do it. I tell myself to put more advertisements on local sites, I have done one, but need to force myself to do more, more often. I should go talk to maternity clinics, doula clinics, prenatal class teachers, but all I have managed is a couple of emails (from which I never received a response). There are so many things that I know would help me get this business where I want it to be, but I find myself procrastinating to do them.
Here’s the funny thing… My current fulltime day job is Sales. I walk in to the offices of Oil & Gas professionals the likes of Vice Presidents and Presidents and I don’t blink an eye, but I can’t seem to make myself walk up to that pregnant lady walking down the street?! Why is that? I’m beginning to think that its because what I sell in my day job isn’t mine. It’s someone else’s and they pay me to keep their business going. Maybe I’m fearful of doing the things that I need to do because it’s mine. If I fail, if I get turned down, the failure and that crappy feeling that goes with it is all mine. It’s my business that suffers or, in my current case, doesn’t grow.
Now am I pushing past this? Yes, I think I am starting to do more and push that fear out the door. I sometimes feel like I am doing it at snails pace (hey, look at me putting myself out there and doing this blogging thing), but I am doing it…
I’ll leave you with a few quotes I found that seem to fit…
Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is to always try just one more time. Thomas A. Edison
I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear. Nelson Mandela
Everything you ever wanted is on the other side of fear. George Addair